Wednesday, July 1, 2015

Okay..

Here's what I've learned from having a miscarriage.

- There's SO many people going through the same thing-- you will feel alone, but I promise you aren't.

- It is different for everybody, yet all the same.

-Talking about it really does help. Its a hard subject to bring up, but if you do you'll feel a lot better.

-God doesn't make mistakes, there's a reason why this happened to you.

-It will make you or it will break you... let it make you.

-It's HARD. Plain and simple.

-The pain will never go away, and it shouldn't. Your baby died. You should remember them always. The pain will be easier to deal with, but it will never go away.

-You will love every baby that comes in your path, but it will still be painful to look at them and think "my baby should have been ___ old."

- Every pregnancy and birth hurts, but makes you so happy at the same time.

-You will feel like the World's biggest jerk for having feelings of jealousy and bitterness towards other women who are experiencing what you want most.

-It will take a long time for your hormones to balance themselves... like legitimately here I am 10 months later and I was put on a medication to balance my hormones because they haven't done so by themselves.

-You will go for days where you're completely fine, and you will go for days where you're sure that you can't take it any longer.

-It can strengthen your marriage. LET IT!

-You're going to be okay. I PROMISE you that.

      Believe me, I'm the first to admit there were (and sometimes still are) days that I just feel like I can't go on any longer. How am I going to make it?  Sometimes I just want to lie in my bed and do nothing for an entire week, but you know what? I can't. That's the funny/not so funny thing about life. It goes on. I'm not saying that you should just get over it, because I definitely don't believe that. Like I said, your baby died, that's definitely worth remembering and grieving over, there's no doubt about that. But I promise you God wouldn't make you suffer this pain without an end in sight. It might not be tomorrow, heck it might not even be in this life, but the day will come. God doesn't make mistakes, you were made exactly how you were meant to be made. Your trials were mapped out before you were even born. Learn from them, and let them make you. You can make it.